SECOND TRY SUCCESSFULL

God is in everything, everything lives in God. Everything therefore carries the potential to make you recognize Him. In other words enlightenment and self-recognition lies hidden within each moment of life. This being the case, whatever you have been taught or told, whatever you have experienced so far, held the potential to bring you closer to God by making you realize and recognize yourself better.
In your quest for (self-)enlightenment you have two option open to you: Either you let the past rest and seek for the Light and Love in the ever new here-now or else, if you chose to ponder on your past, try to see it with different eyes. Take a step backwards and view it with a wider perspective and most of all, dare to prove your first assumptions and preclusions about it to have been wrong. Especially in religious teachings it serves well take another look at. The people who taught you about them probably fell under the error to force their own understanding and conclusions about them on you along with the Holy doctrine. However the source where they derived it from are of a lasting truth and universal validity. Therefore likely to yield you deeper insights, provided you are now looking at them with the desire to see beyond the surface and prepared to relate your personal experiences and understanding to them.