Transformation can only happen from within. This is why no amount of reading and studying wise books and literature has a further effect than to temporarily give you the illusion of knowing. Yet it does enhance the mind and render it more open, given you are of a dispostion willing to learn and grow. True growth of consciousness demands the willingness to venture forth into the unknown and unknowable, solely on Faith that the experiences you make along that path have valitity, although to the world they might appear non-existant and even you your-self might doubt them at times.